A Long Overdue Update

Hello again all! I've got a lot to talk about in this journal so let's get started!

First off let's get the bad stuff out of the way. The biggest update is that I've broken my phone in one of my rage fests and I can't really get into Steam at all atm. It was ok for a while but a while ago I had to reset my laptop to factory default to restore OneDrive, which while not perfect, is what I'd been using to jot down ALL my notes on different games, optimization for recordings etc. So obviously it was important I restore whatever I could out of it, but since I can't use the authenticator I'm officially locked out of Steam for a while.

Secondly there's no updates on me getting a job, or on me getting new videos out for the moment. I want to finish my recovery from depression before I put too much effort into that, and though it's still a dream for the future, I need to get a lot of other things settled in my life before I continue working on that. First of which will be getting back on a consistent sleep schedule so I can take my medication at the proper times and be active at the proper time to help my family. To give you an idea of how bad it's gotten, I'll range from getting 3 hours of sleep to more than 10 a night, wake up anywhere from 9 AM to 5 PM, and go to bed anywhere from 1 to 8 AM. This has been absolutely wrecking my energy overall and my doctor has told me I need to get on a consistent schedule so I don't get groggy after taking my meds, thus making the problem worse. So that big issue needs to be resolved first and foremost.

For some more positive news, I'm doing a lot more on the games that I am playing. I recently got every single unique item from this year's Crystalline Gala in Flight Rising (one of the game's monthly festivals with unique limited availability items, based on the 11 unique elemental flights), and I'm making great progress on beating Crash Bash on PS1 to 200% for the first time, which is exciting, even through all the RNG hell that game has to offer. X3 Overall I'm making big progress in the games I am able to play and hopefully my quest for 100% and 200% save files will be successful in due time. =3

Despite my sleeping problems, my mood overall has gotten a lot better, my energy has improved from what it was, and I very rarely have suicidal thoughts anymore, so the medication is clearly working. The staff I've spoken with at the Southeast clinic have been very friendly and timely about my treatment and there's only one doctor there that I felt even slightly uncomfortable talking with. Physically I'm doing pretty well, even if I still got a gut that would make ol' Saint Nick jealous, no other major problems there. X3

Finally, and some may see this as a mixed bag, I've become more involved in politics. Now, I'm not going to make political posts on here, as pushing it onto others isn't the best idea. If you don't have an interest in politics or discussing it, then me posting articles and videos about it here won't convince you otherwise. After the previous election though where I was almost convinced to vote for Donald Trump (I didn't vote in that election and now I couldn't be happier about that. How crazy is that?) I decided I had to inform myself a bit more. Both for my sake, for my parents sake, and for that of anyone willing to learn more about the issues the United States is facing. The election proved that fear is a powerful and in itself scary tool for fueling destruction and hatred, and if I can alleviate even a shred of that by learning more, than I'm more than happy to try. Anyone willing to talk about political issues with me is more than welcome to respectfully, and I won't judge based on positions of any kind. There are a lot of outlets of information out there, a lot that don't have proper sources and are only serving to make things more confusing for people to understand, so it's easy to see how certain viewpoints can be instilled in people. I've always seen ideas, not people, as my enemy, as a bad idea will remain a bad idea unless reformed or fit to a different more relevant time, but people have the capability of change and improvement, hard as it might be sometimes. And though there are truly evil people in this world, I always presume the person I'm speaking with has at least some good in them, and I try to find it and appeal to it, or if needed, show it to them so they can see they're not all bad. I intend to bring that mindset into my political discussion moving forward, and to apply it to any leadership positions I may go for down the line.

Overall things have been going reasonably well now and I have a lot of hope for the future. I'm sorry for being so long overdue for this update but I at least got it out eventually. =3 As always, I hope things are going well for you, I welcome you to message me or ask advice about whatever you like, and I hope you have a great day!

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